My 8 Week Keto Journey

This last Christmas I went on a 13 day binge on sugar. I became sick and decided again to quit sweets for good. I was aching all over, my stomach hurt and my body was not performing. Worst of all my mind was cloudy and foggy even after coffee and getting lots of sleep. Perhaps even more unfortunately is that I’ve become used to all of those consequences from my all out sugar addiction.

It’s not fair to judge exactly that point in time because technically I had a hangover. And you know when you have one of those smokes that just makes you want to cough up a lung and quit forever? It was like that. So, I decided for about the 22nd time in my life to quit eating sweets. And I started to think about how.

I turned to ketogenic diet for the first time.

I had tried it a little bit before- using high good fat and low sugar- but I had never fully tried almost zero complex carbs such as bread and pasta, and I had also never really got my fat content high enough for it to be keto. From what I understand, eating high good fats can help with sugar cravings big time and as it turns out, it has. I looked back at my previous experiences trying to stop eating sweets, and it was often the case that I kept eating other complex carbs as well. I don’t think I ever once stopped craving sweets, though I have given them up before.

We flew to Kelowna to visit my wife’s sister, husband, niece and nephew for the rest of the holidays. On the plane ride I was working cashews into my mouth every time I wanted to eat. It was a start. Cashews, coffee and flight anxiety helped me force from my mind the thought of a sandwich. It was a long flight.

Got to Kelowna and I knew it was going to be hard. If you’ve ever met a sugar addict like me you’ll know from asking them that the best time to eat sugar aside from all day every day, is when visiting with family or friends. The cake comes out, my frown turns into a smile while my fork clinks and clanks to the bottom of my cake plate.

So not eating sugar can cause some social tension. Try saying no to a piece of pie from mom, and other such devilish tempters. Then, double that stress for avoiding flour or potatoes from people who are feeding you three times a day.

So I used the time out in BC to get it out of my system… Actually resisting the carbs when offered and deliberately forcing myself to eat other things during meals solidified my compunction to keep strong for when I would get back home. It helped that my sister in law helped make it easy with access to shakes and letting me keep my own food schedule and stuff in the fridge. With keto, my food scheduling radically changed.

So I started eating avocados, coconut oil, my own version of bullet proof coffee, nuts seeds and eggs. Meat too. So it’s not exactly the keto recommendations, which are moderate protein. I’ve eaten tons of protein.

Anyways it was really hard at first. My purpose became quite singular for that first week: stay away from sugarcane products, flour while wolfing down tons of good fats and proteins. After about two days of feeling a bit dazed and hungry I got an influx of the energy promised in the reading I was doing on the subject. As I kept going I kept getting more energy.

The hardest part was at night when my inner sugar health thief comes out, smashes daytime healthy Bob over the head with a donut- shaped cane like Mr Hyde, and falls asleep in a hypoglycaemic haze. And that thief came out bad for that first week at night, but I just stuffed myself with the food I was allowing myself to eat, and refused to answer his knock.

After I got back to Toronto I kept going. And as I’ve kept going, Ive noticed my cravings for sweets subside.

Three weeks in I was feeling as little craving for sweets as I had in 40 years, even at night. I began to study orthodox keto more and applied as much as I could. Keto folks like intermittent fasting, which is hard to do. It’s just less eating, eating less frequently or even abstaining from food. My version has been to have one solid bullet proof coffee in the morning and honestly I sometimes I don’t eat till 130 in the afternoon. Unheard of for me, and I was full of energy the whole time. No hazy, hungry, something-is-wrong-so-I’ll eat feeling.

Also, I began to lose weight. First four weeks, I actually had no weight loss, but in the last three weeks: 10 pounds. I’ve added more good fat, and got some of the protein content down. I’ve also been stepping up yoga and the gym. My work schedule has also changed for the better and I’m getting better rest. All this has added up to a more fuelled and focused me, some weight loss, and better mental energy. Those things are totally true, and some of them are related to my new way of eating.

I’ve been trying to lose the last 20 pounds of the weight I gained 9 years ago when my doctor put me onto a med to help me sleep. I was always a wiry strong 185, but after this med, I went up to 245 pounds within 6 months, ended up fighting off 30 of it, but I have struggled to get the rest down. I hope keto is a way of doing that too.

In the last 8 weeks, I have had two sugar eating episodes, late at night. One was graham crackers. The other chocolate. I also have eaten one slice of pizza, one whole pizza, and about 5 slices of toast. But other than that, no complex carbs for 8 weeks. Not bad for a food junkie that literally ate carbs at every meal his entire life, and has been struggling with sugar addiction for 40 years.

Here’s my bulletproof coffee: 35% cream, big tablespoon of organic coconut oil, smaller tablespoon of organic butter, blended, warmed in the microwave. Add strong organic coffee.

Keto bars: raw peanuts, raw almond slices, raw pumpkin seeds, raw sunflower seeds, peanut butter, fibre-based sweetener, butter, cacao powder, flax meal, coconut oil. Combine and bake.

Shake: beets, beet greens, kale, coconut oil, peanut butter, half an avocado, egg yolk, low glycemic frozen berries, water. Sometimes I add a high quality all in one shake powder or protein powder.



The Invasion

I brought home expensive wine that night before Russia. The first glass stopped halfway to my wife’s mouth, its contents trembling along with her hand. She looked up at me. “What do you mean you’re going?”

“I’m the only one that will do it,” I said.

“So what, that doesn’t mean you should.” Lisa could see it was pointless. I had that look in my eyes, that fire-like addictive substance of fear, obsession and excitement. It was the real reason I did my job. She brought the wine up to her lips, dispatched the entire glass in two gulps, got up from the table without touching her steak and went upstairs to our room. I was going to have to work harder if I wanted to get a little warm and fuzzy with the wife before I left. I finished my dinner and let things cool off for a couple of hours.

She was mad because she was scared. So was I. The reports coming into the States from Europe were from so many credible sources that our paper finally sent someone. I drew the short straw. I was a reporter for the Chicago Sun Times and I was assigned to investigate stories coming from a rural Russian village about something that had crash landed in one of their fields. You may rest assured that none of us- none of the reporters assigned to the event- were very confident we would ever come back alive. There was a sense of dread… even doom. The woman who booked our travel arrangements at the paper was normally really talkative and friendly, but when I picked up my itinerary for this assignment, she wouldn’t even make eye contact. The look of stark pity on her face summed it up.

I remember that Monday morning when I first found out. My voicemail had blown up from nearly every corner in journalism. Yes, my work phone stayed in a drawer on weekends. There was an urgent message from my good friend John in Munich at the US foreign office. I called him back. “What is it?” I asked.

“You haven’t heard? Something happened in Russia, not far from Moscow. A ship landing. Not human origin.” I giggled, knowing that me and John spent many a night drinking and discussing shoddy journalism, and a growing lack of integrity in the field. “I am not fucking with you,” he went on. “There’s a blackout from the Kremlin and diplomats everywhere from Washington to Prague are trying to wet down these rumors. Check it out yourself. I have to go.” And he hung up.

I raced down to my editor’s desk and crashed through the door. He sat looking out his window, peacefully. “What the hell?” I said. I was like a badger then. I had some issues with… diplomacy.

“I know, Bob. Calm down,” he said.

I couldn’t believe it: “You know about this? Why aren’t we on it? This is huge.” He got up without looking at me and made himself a small drink from his mini fridge, taking his sweet time. He shot it down and planted his ass back into his chair.

“You know shit like this can sink a real news outlet. You chase down enough rabbit holes got nuthin but dirty water, you can bet yourself out of a job in this racket.”

He was right. I took a breath, calmed down a bit, grabbed a chair and thought about what to say next. “John Silver in Munich confirmed, plus three others from the feed all saying the same thing.”

“Fine,” he said, “you can go.” A smile broadened the concern written across his face.

“I never said I wanted to go,” which was a lie. I smiled right back

“Well you’re going anyways,” he said and poured us both a 9:30 am Remy Marin.

By seven o’clock that same evening- after my wife stormed away from the dinner table- I had phoned all my relatives, and assured my mother that all the rumors that had spread couldn’t have been anything more that a hoax, and I was simply going to debunk the whole thing. And I was lucky enough to get some goodbye loving in with Lisa- I didn’t know then that I was going to be gone for the next twelve weeks, on this crazy story.

I sat back in my seat the next morning as the plane lifted out of New York on a cool, sunny Tuesday and I went over what I actually knew. Not much: A ship of unknown origin had landed just north of Moscow. That was it, but it had got everyone talking. Some people were saying they had seen little brown aliens running around. Some people panicked, some people celebrated. I was going to see a guy named John who said he saw the whole thing. I wondered, just as my ears popped, if this was just a plane ride and a few nights in a shit hotel away from my wife. We had reached altitude.

John was my first of many interviews on this story. I first spoke with him over the phone the night before leaving. His English was very good.. He had been out walking his dog when he witnessed an airship come to a severe and sudden skid across the back of his neighbor’s long field. Curiosity pushed him past his fear. His trusty female Doberman helped too: “With one word she is ready, you understand?” he said proudly.

“I went closer to see, with my Klatchka on a short leash.” John stopped talking and I thought we had been cut off. I asked him to go on. “No,” he said. “I do not know who could be listening. I will only meet you in person.” So I went.

John’s town of Ozerestokye is about 35 miles north of Moscow. The Kremlin definitely wanted the town’s people to keep silent but none of my good contacts took that very seriously… The KGB also released a “military command” for the people of Ozerestokye to not speak to any foreign reporters- so I had to sneak around a bit to get there. Fortunately for me, the people of Ozerestokye didn’t give a damn about the Kremlin and the various things Mother Russia asked of them.

John and I met 36 hours after the incident. I got in through Ukraine. I had to drop my laptop, phone and everything, and crossed into Russia as a beet field worker to keep things under the radar. I didn’t want to miss this meeting. We met in front of his house and shook hands. John was thin and had a brisk walking pace and began immediately to talk. “This was day before yesterday, in the night,” he said, beckoning me towards his house. “I haven’t slept since.” I believed him on that at least. Whatever he needed to tell me was weighing on him, physically.

We walked around to his back yard. From about twenty-five meters, I could just make out the pit left by some force of impact. “Is that it?” I said.

“Yes,” he answered. “When it smashed down, we thought it was to explode. Klatchka and I saw the whole thing.” Dogs weren’t much of a second witness, I secretly thought.

We ambled towards the crater it had left, and as we did he whistled, summoning a massive Doberman that came out of nowhere and heeled at his side. “When Klatchka is with me, I do not even fear our local bears. Her ruthlessness is a prize. You must see it.” I nodded and smiled as if I understood ferocious canines. Lisa and I had a Morkie at home.

Unlike his neighbours who were all farmers, John was a hunter. He said that the vessels’ last few moments in the air reminded him of, “Watching an injured beast lurching and dying right in front of me.”

“What exactly did the ship look like?” I asked.

“It wobbled,” he said, as he used his hands to outline its erratic movement in the sky. “A disk, I thought. Very difficult to know shape and size…impossible speed through the air.” It looped above chaotically, he said, nearly fading from view, then returning full swing, “Like a boomerang.” It came close several times to cracking up into a stand of trees in the back of his field.

“Klatchka wouldn’t take her eyes off it. I ducked when it passed back over our heads. The air became very heavy. I cannot describe it, like a wall of warm air pushing through.” He was nearly in a trance just watching it, he said. He reported later that he had felt hypnotized by some unknown force. “Then Klatchka started barking, and it woke me up.”

The cadence of his speech became rapid and he peered down to the ground as many do who are recalling a bad memory which maybe no one will believe. “I was scared and raised my rifle. I was worried my dog would draw them to us, so I whispered, ‘Klatchka stop, stop barking. Stop now.’ But she would not.” He looked at me with wide eyes and gathered himself. “Then it stopped and fell straight down from about 10 meters up.”

We inched closer, traipsing over the knee-high troughs in in the rows of last year’s lentils. As we did, his dog drew to the ground and began to slink along behind, whimpering. “We hunt bear- I have never seen her like this,” John said.

We got to within 20 feet of the pit, which was marked off by frayed police tape, barely hanging on in the wind. On one end was the unmistakeable mark of where something had crashed: the soil there had been carved clean as if by a guillotine or large shovel. At the other end was a hill of dirt about 45 feet high, where the earth had been pushed forward like a wave. I reached down and touched the ground in front of me- it was still very hard.

John went on. “About three of the neighboring families had already arrived, and stayed back of maybe 15 meters.” They heard hisses and metallic clicks coming from the thing.

All of the other witnesses confirmed these facts in nearly identical detail. The one exception was the town’s mayor, who maintained a more diplomatic position, in spite of the fact that he had not been present for the crash landing and the drama that ensued just after it.

“These people are simple,” he said to me on the day after I met with John. “Do not believe everything they tell you. You probably do not understand Russian farmers. Have a drink with me.” We drank strong beer while the mayor smoked a small Cuban cigar. He seemed to want to position himself as the centerpiece of my story- I was used to this sort of thing and I let him go on thinking he would be. He later gave an official statement to the press that concluded, “The ship of our visitors must have been built in heaven itself, and landed gracefully upon the welcoming, cooperative and fertile soil of Russia (translation).” It was the most common tact taken by leaders from various nations in response to our newly arrived visitors. That is, before we figured out what kind of visitors they actually were…

Let me get back to John’s version, though. It was getting late and chilly and we walked back from the crash site towards his home for something to eat. “It is the first time I have eaten since all this happened,” he said. “Maybe telling someone has given me back an appetite.” He cooked us venison and potato stew and continued his story while I sat at the small kitchen table. “Everything got still for over one hour while the ship just sat there. No one said a word.”

Suddenly, whatever organism was inside turned on some kind of loudspeaker. “Those of us gathered outside- good Russians, let me tell you- we could hear them but we could not see them.” I admit I was getting spooked. I was actually starting to believe him. I scanned the room nervously where blue-faded pictures of his relatives stared back at me from the kitchen walls; the head of a large brown bear slung over the fireplace, its glass eyes spelling out unheard warnings; a rifle case half open in the corner with a well-worn brass latch; the wood stove; and next to it, Klatchka, sitting right in front of the only door, staring outwards, whimpering and panting. “Don’t mind her,” he said and went on.

“A voice came out of the microphone- in perfect Russian by the way- and introduced themselves: The Boronstock, who roamed the galaxy, using planets for resources and entertainment.” John said one of his cousins smirked at him and whispered, “Did they say ‘entertainment?’”

“We had begun to feel a chill in our bones,” John continued, “at what this thing was saying. Even poor people like us can understand, you know. But then something changed,” he went on. “There was a rumbling in the background, and another voice. There were two of them!”

Whoever or whatever had the microphone barked at the other one, muffled though, “Like when you cover the telephone receiver for a moment. Then voices that john assured me were not Russian, German or English. “They got louder, one yelling over the other. Then even louder. Then they were almost screaming.”

The microphone must have been dropped and John said he believed they began to fight over its use. “They were arguing, there is no doubt,” he said. An object was thrown and something screeched out loud. “Whatever was inside that ship, I swear a fight took place between them that lasted at least two minutes.”

I took a breath. I tell you, this part of the story had few variations, even after I interviewed every single person present, and went over police reports. In journalism this is very rare. Yet I found myself very troubled to believe. That is of course until I eventually saw our visitors in action for myself.

John went on. “We heard crashing. Something broke like glass. It sounded like they were cursing each other.”

John said that he and the other onlookers began to shake their heads. “One of the grandmothers said “Idiotski,” under her breath and laughed, which got all of us giggling.

“Then something went off with a bang and we stopped laughing. A pitiful cry was heard, then silence.” The microphone was slowly retrieved, and the creature cleared its throat to resume its message, which began:

“To the many people of the earth before us.”

The suspension of my disbelief had reached its outermost limit and John must have noticed the look on my face. “It sounds impossible?” It had been a long day, I said and I asked John for a drink. I told him a good journalist needed to be open to anything, but also picky. I liked him and felt that I could be frank.

He continued. The organism emerged from its ship several minutes later. John and everyone else present agreed that it had an unmistakeable look of surprise on its face- though it were hard to distinguish the gestures of a thing so hideous and unseemly. There were rapid, furtive movements to its skittish black eyes. It seemed to be constantly looking about and it regularly turned its head to peer behind itself- the way a fearful person does in the street. Its nose was wet like a dogs, but shinier, and a loathsome white tongue frequently licked it with a mucous-like saliva, which ran down to its lip, only to be re-swallowed every few seconds. Their mouths curled down as if always in complaint, with thin lips. Later, when I saw one of them, their appearance reminded me of features which one generally associates with a bias towards dishonesty. It stood about four feet tall, had a long torso, short legs and wore a cream coloured gown.

It must be noted that for all its hideousness, we later came to discover that their species had a robust appetite and even crude talent for the erotic…


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I Skyped with Lisa that night on an internet connection that wasn’t great. When the screen switched on at her end, I could see she was still a little pissed. But I had a sarcastic smile stretched across my face.

“What is it?” she said, and I told her about John and Klatchka. “Great, you made a new friend,” she said. I told her about the pit and the police tape. “A hole in the ground in the middle of Russia,” she retorted back. So I told her a little more about John’s story and the crash he witnessed. “Did anyone else see it?” she said.

“No, well, I mean there were other witnesses who came after it crashed…”

“Was there anything more? Or can you come home now?”

I explained the rest of the story, and told her that at least 15 other people said the exact same thing.

“You’re telling me that an organism has flown halfway across a galaxy, crash lands in a field in the middle of the night, only to end up in a fistfight over a microphone so it can give a speech to 15 Russian farmers?”

“Yes, that’s the story,” I said and smiled. She smiled too, and we had a decent little laugh. I actually felt a relief. Maybe it was just a hoax, I thought to myself. “They’ve called a press conference in the Dominican, for tomorrow,” I said and just then our connection was lost.

I attended this event, flying out of Moscow after claiming to the US consulate I had lost my passport. It didn’t matter. By now, the floodgates had opened and reporters were getting into Ozerystokye like bull sharks on prey. I admit that my story was the first that broke about John and his incredible tale. He swiftly became a bit of a celebrity.

The Dominican press conference went well except for one small detail towards the end. First off, the Dominican President could not have been more proud and he sent his very top aide to assist the creatures, whom he described as, “Our alien friends.” The Boronstock spent the afternoon on the beach and when they finally took the stage they delivered a four-hour speech in the sweltering, Caribbean spring heat. “Cronky,” was the name of their ambassador, their leader was an alien named Glotten, who was unable to make the press conference because he was indisposed at the moment.

Most of us were drenched in sweat and started to become impatient but Cronky stood up there and rambled through a history of their species, referring many times to the great degree of refinement and beauty their race possessed, “The likes of which humanity had probably never been exposed.” There were few real details, however. It seemed rather to be what my friend Able Adams from the New York Times described as, “A protracted series of self-congratulations and blustery pretensions.”

All we were thinking about that day were the plans these creatures had for the earth and its inhabitants, but when Cronky finally addressed this, it was three and a half hours in. We were done- we couldn’t take any more. I remember I had forgotten my recorder that day, and the small notepad I was using became so soaked with sweat from my writing hand, that I could make out little of what I had written. I am pretty sure Cronky said we would fall under their strict control and that everything would be explained. He said that what we needed to know now was that this was not the first time they had taken over a planet from a lesser race, and that fighting them would only make things so much worse.

Just then a smarmy little grin passed across his thin lips, but it was so hot that I thought my mind was playing tricks on me.

We were falling into heat-induced dementia, to the point where I just didn’t care what this little thing was going on about anymore. It reminded me of the three-hour Pentecostal church services my dad used to bring me to when I was a kid in west Texas. I just remember squirming and begging for it end. I know they were talking some really important stuff, but I couldn’t help it, I just couldn’t pay any more attention.

Then Cronky pulled out an overhead (which he had borrowed last minute from us) and began to place photographs onto it, which projected onto a fold out screen. They were snapshots of organisms, “From other planets.” We woke up a little, out of fear. It looked like these creatures seemed to be in various states of agony and despair- though their alien features masked their expressions to us, and so we relied on Cronky commenting on each photo. He pulled up one particular photo on the overhead that I do remember. It was brownish and faded, and reminded me of photos guys take after they’ve caught a fish. “Look at this pitiful organism,” Cronky said, “look at the pain and suffering.” I winced, partly to try to make out the details of the photograph. It appeared that the poor thing was being hung upside down by its ankles, and two Boronstock stood at either side, mugging for the camera.

Cronky pointed to one of the Boronstock in the picture, and said proudly, “That’s me, when I was much younger.” He seemed to really enjoy this. He began to giggle and kibitz back and forth with the other Boronstock who stood beside him. They were in fond memory of earlier times. To be truthful, it was crass.

They caught themselves suddenly, or else noticed that none of us were laughing, and few of us were even paying attention- it was too damn hot.

“Do not underestimate us,” he said sternly, clearing his throat and speaking English again. That was the end of the conference. He took a long gulp from a glass of brown liquid on the podium, licked his lips, looked around and tried to walk down from the stage.

This is where things got interesting. Cronky would have been fine, except that he fell on those three short steps leaving the stage, cut his knee open and nearly broke his leg. We gasped in terror. An American medic was later praised for her quick response, as she was able to stabilize the wound, and assuage the creature’s great distress. Cronky writhed on the ground uncontrollably and cried out for almost 20 minutes. We watched helplessly while the medic appeared several times- in my opinion- to try to break off the strange embrace between the two of them, though she denied this to me later when I interviewed her. Thank goodness that Cronky’s wound turned out to be quite superficial.

Two well-known papers in France immediately did humour pieces on the aliens’ apparent lack of physical coordination. Our galactic invaders immediately shot back with a press release of their own, which appeared in several major news outlets the following day. According to them Cronky had, “Tripped on his long and impressive garment, the exceptional beauty of which could not possibly be understood by such a lowly species as the human.” Someone should have been holding up the draping fabric of his gown, they said. They admitted that our lack of awareness was not at all surprising to them, so they would have mercy on us for screwing things up. Meanwhile, the world sat spellbound and confounded in front of our televisions, radios and newspapers.

Though their arrival had provoked nearly total chaos and fear amongst the people of the earth, a small anecdote from that first Dominican press conference hinted at something far less sinister: It was something that we humans could at least make sense of. You see, Cronky was drunk. The human aide from the Dominican president’s office who was assigned to coordinate the event told me later that the creature who fell off the stage that day had not tripped on his gown at all. “He was hammered,” she said. “In the hour leading up to his speech, he and his two associates must have downed at least twelve half -litre bottles of local spiced rum. I should know, I was the one who kept running out to get them more.”

They called another press conference. About a week later. I flew there too. They wanted us to convene in the parliament building in London so they could announce a list of world leaders with whom they wished to work. They wanted our help with their invasion! So we came, from around the world, and clambered into the stodgy, wooden interior of the parliament house, until every inch of every hall were filled and still we spilled out into the street. Our leaders gave speeches at their own press conferences leading up to the event, arguing why the Boronstock should pick them for the momentous task.

The day arrived for the London press conference. It was scheduled for one o’clock. Then a call from Cronky- at 1:15- Glotten was running behind they said-they would be there by two. Two came around and they still weren’t there. At 2:30 there was another call. They suggested we should all go have tea, because they weren’t ready yet, due to the immense preparation required. Five o’clock was much more appropriate, they said. So we had tea, delivered to the 5000 of us in attendance. Then five rolled around. No call, no show. Grumblings from the huge audience were heard, though everyone still waited. By 9 pm, people started to leave- we had flights to catch, and kids at home. I was supposed to Skype with my wife that night after dinner, but I didn’t get back to my hotel until well after 1:30 in the morning. They just never came.

The explanation for their absence, though heavily underreported at first, became the touchstone of a growing doubt about these creatures’ true intentions. It had turned out that the leader, Glotten, was partying in a well known brothel in London with Cronky and their other associates. They had run up a 72,000-pound tab, which they couldn’t pay. They had no money. As the owner of the establishment could no longer take the constant insults his galactic guests were hurling at him and his staff, and the poor way in which the women attendants were being handled, he called the police. In one small article left to the back of the London Herald, a female worker from the brothel had this to say: “They were the randiest creatures you’ve ever seen. They wouldn’t take their paws off us. They stayed awake for days drinking! It was awful.”

The British Prime Minister stepped in and proudly paid the brothel owner’s invoice for the party. There was a very strange picture published in one of Paris’ more liberal papers that showed this grey- suited diplomat from the British prime minister’s office shaking hands with the brothel owner and cutting him a check. The prime minister meanwhile tried to use it as an opportunity to show the Boronstock and the rest of the world what true cooperatives the Brits were and how, “We intend to be fully amicable to our new visitors and their aspirations.” I’ll be honest, as an American- as a southerner at that- I felt my stomach turn a little.

This incident was followed directly by another like it, two days later. The Parisian mayor at the time personally invited Glotten to the Opera, hoping also to dig up favours for his city and nation, and to create a nice chance for publicity. Manon by Massenet was running and everyone of importance in France would be there. I caught wind and got there just in time to witness the spectacle that ensued.

Our visitors attended in grand fashion: The world’s entertainment press photographed them as they approached the doors to the Palais Garnier. Though the mayor never admitted it publicly, a driver from their limousine, a ticket taker from the opera and one of the photographers who dared get close to her alien subject all confirmed to me that Glotten and his associate got sauced before the performance.

Things were going well until towards the end of the first intermission, when the Diva opened the curtain and came out in rare fashion, stunning the audience. She wanted to address her stupendous and galactic audience members, and a spot was proudly put up onto the box where Glotten and the mayor were sitting. But as everyone’s eyes adjusted, we could see that nearly everyone in the entire group had fallen asleep during the first act. The Parisian mayor’s wife nudged the mayor awake, and he in turn nudged Glotten, alerting him to the unexpected bath of attention.

Sensing a moment of celebrity, Glotten and his assistant stood- haplessly forgetting just how drunk they were. The full house in attendance applauded almost wildly. Glotten was steady on his feet- we learned that none of the other Boronstock could hold their liquor as well as he. His alien assistant, however, swooned under the light then teetered and lost his balance. The audience gasped and stopped clapping all at once, just as the creature fell over the handrail, 35 feet onto seats below. A woman screamed and a brief panic set in. A medic was called but it was too late. Apparently their bones were quite thin- much thinner than ours, and the poor alien had crushed his skull on the edge of the dense, 100 year old walnut seats of the Palais Garnier.

The death of the visitor sparked rumours about some kind of retaliation and people all around the world were generally in a panic. The only response from them, however, was another press release, this time lambasting the Diva of Manon for her untimely and spontaneous deviation from the show. It was our fault- again. I gathered reports- from five or six people from the orchestra pit, who hopelessly watched the creature expire: they all agreed on one thing: that the dying organism absolutely reeked of hard liquor.

The press was suddenly becoming less interested in these events. It was actually my wife who pointed this out to me, during one of our Skype calls after the Paris incident: “Bob, haven’t you noticed something?”

“What?” I said.

She smiled. “Every time they set up a press conference or something, they don’t show.” I had to admit she was right, though no one from the mainstream press had yet alluded to it. “Either that or they go on these long tirades about their species. The plan to take over the earth never gets discussed, or it always gets put off. They haven’t given us one detail and they haven’t actually done anything.” We giggled then started to laugh. It was at that moment that I remembered John from Ozerestokye, and the Russian grandmother who got everyone laughing during the Boronstock’s scuttle over the microphone. My wife was right. Nothing up to that point matched what an alien invasion should look like.

Cronky’s incident about a week later at a Cleveland Indians game was no exception to this pattern of dysfunction. Apparently the Boronstock loved gambling, as well as drinking. We found out later that Cronky had bet a huge quantity of money on the game against the Yankees that Sunday afternoon. A consortium of nations who wanted to help the creatures’ state of abject poverty had donated the money to them. Unfortunately, a large Indians lead got blown in the 8th inning by an admittedly shoddy outing from the Cleveland bullpen, and as the go ahead run rounded third, a teenage girl sitting behind Cronky began to cheer most innocently for her beloved Yanks. Perhaps it was in bad taste on her part- after all it was a Cleveland home game- but the response she received was truly unfair. The creature- drunk by that time- wheeled around to chastise her. People said Cronky was frothing at the loss of his monies and his hatred of Yankees baseball and became quite abusive. The poor girl was only 14.

The group of people near them in the stands along the third base line, casually turned to see what was up. Such incidents were not unusual for Indians games against the Yanks. But after about 45 seconds of a vicious verbal berating by this drunk little alien, the girl’s father finally stepped in and told the creature where to go. He was a big man- a New Yorker.

The over confident Cronky then turned his attention to the dad, and started into him with little thought of what he was saying. The daughter- and it must be noted that this was the very first act of human aggression against our visitors- took what was left of her hot dog and planted it directly onto the creature’s bald, brown head. She followed it with her drink and giggled at the mustard dripping down his brow. The crowd gasped or laughed in equal parts.

Everything became still. Sensing his own embarrassment, Cronky looked around at the crowd and perhaps briefly thought of controlling himself, but his temper got the best of him and he lurched from his seat and grabbed the scruff of the girl’s Yankees jersey. People began twisting to get out of the way and holding up their cameras and phones. Somebody whistled for the cops. The creature would not let go, however, and the father, unable to contain himself any longer, quickly landed two excellent right hands directly onto the creature’s poor forehead. It reeled, and for a moment nearly caught its balance, but then fell into the back of the Cleveland dugout, vomited and passed out.

We started to really lose interest as a whole. Major news outlets either stopped reporting for fear they would look like tabloids, or else tabloids were the only ones reporting these events. I suppose it was because we were less afraid, and other really important matters began come back up in world journalism.

My wife and I continued to talk via Skype as I followed these shenanigans around the country and the rest of the world. It was exhausting, and our conversations produced much-needed relief from the weariness I was beginning to feel from all the travel. It was like covering a war, but one that was only ever about to take place, and whose main aggressor seemed far more interested in getting hammered in the worlds dirtiest corners than they were interested in taking over our planet. I needed home, and just about then- twelve weeks to the day they arrived- I finally gave up full time coverage on the story.

My editor pulled me off, right after it came out that their leader, Glotton had slept with the Russian president’s wife. She and Glotton had apparently become good friends in the days after their crash landing. Her reputation for heavy drinking drink was well known and she and the alien leader became inseparable. They often drank together into the night and commonly ended up in friendly arguments about who was more intelligent- the Russians or the Boronstock. The creatures’ ship was large enough to be their home, but it was damaged in the crash and was uninhabitable. So, homeless, they had been staying in the guest- house of the Russian President, where everything took place.

As it happens sometimes in human affairs, the combination of drinking and excessive amounts of time spent together between a male and a female who have a natural liking for each other- well… you understand. Things happen. I mean, how did Svetla think it would turn out? The Russian President had been completely oblivious, until the one night he happened to come into the room where the two of them… in front of the television… it was disgusting. An aide and a security detail of three men accompanied the President during his discovery, and, knowing the story would have been impossible to contain, the Kremlin held a press conference to announce what had happened.

It was truly dysfunctional. I attended and stood at the front with the press while the President made a brief speech. His wife and Glotton stood on either side of him with doleful expressions on all of their faces- at first. Svetla was gloomy, crying and apologizing. Yet just as the Russian president was disclosing the horrific revelation of the affair, Glotton’s expression changed. A grin- I swear it was a grin, we all did- began to invade the corners of his unseemly mouth. His beady, black eyes darted back and forth. A reporter from Moskow noticed immediately, raised his hand and asked impatiently what Glotton thought was so funny about this embarrassing affair. Glotton quickly retorted that his expression was one of profound sadness and grief- not a smile at all. He added that no one understood him- especially not anyone from a race of creatures as illogical and short sighted as we humans.

He then told a long story about how he had been more poorly treated on earth than on any other planet he had visited. He went on to discuss that his job was really stressing him out right now, and that he really just needed some affection. He sobbed.

It’s really funny the things we notice or don’t notice. I Skyped with Lisa one last time before heading home. Towards the end of our conversation, she remarked, “What happened to their women? All of the Boronstock are men.” We both thought for a minute on that one, then Lisa snorted, “Maybe their women kicked their asses out of the house,” and we both howled in laughter.

I caught the red eye out of Minneapolis where Cronky had been admitted to the hospital after another fight. I got home that night twelve weeks after I had left. An alien species had crash-landed the earth, only to end up a bunch of hedonistic drunks.

I walked up the three steps to the front door that Saturday morning in July, put the key in and turned the knob. In exhaustion and gratitude, I embraced my wife. She looked up at me and her lips curved into a smile. “I’m pregnant,” she said. “It must have been that night before you left, I’m exactly twelve weeks along.”

The Boronstock stuck around. Their ship was broken, so they kind of had to. We just kept feeding them liquor wherever they went, and pretended to listen to them go on about some invasion. After all, they had done this before.


I love hot yoga.

Yoga has benefitted me greatly. Hot yoga has benefited me even more.

But many from the yoga industry in North America take issue on the topic of the heated yoga room. Hot yoga got real popular real quick after Bikram Chodhury created his Bikram method, which is practiced in 100+ degree temperatures. Other yoga studios and companies have followed with heat, such as Moksha Yoga and YogaFit Sweat. In the beginning of the sizzling trend, the health benefits of the temperatures were taken for granted. Bikram and his teachers touted nearly miraculous qualities of practicing in the heat- not surprising for folks who came to partake in an empire of branded hot yoga and hot yoga teacher trainings.

Since then, a pendulum shift has occurred- a swing back from the high claims made by Chodhury and other disciples of the hot yoga reformation. I find these pendulum shifts  very interesting. New camps sprout up all around us, decrying the very foundations of the work of the generation that came just before: A new US president takes office and begins immediately to undo the work of the previous eight years; new psychotherapies erupt out of the calcified ruins of what only ten years ago were considered revolutions in easing people’s psychological suffering; and yes, hot yoga has now been through it’s own 360 of sorts, with a culture-wide retraction of the claims once made about its tremendous health benefits.

Even Moksha Yoga founder Ted Grand takes up efforts in this reversal. In a recent article in Sweat Equity Magazine, Ted said that “There’s plenty of science behind sweating and detoxification, but nothing I’m aware of regarding hot yoga.” The article goes on to frame the pendulum shift as a debunking of hot yoga health benefits myths. (

Ok, so Ted can’t claim his yoga has the same health benefits of sweating…I get it. He’s got to be diplomatic. But there’s a huge body of scientific literature supporting sweating and saunas as legitimate health practices, and tons of research into yoga. Both of these also come with thousands years practice. The only article I could find about hot yoga was one that tried to demonstrate the level of safety of Bikram Yoga, published by the American Council on Exercise (1). Yet I’m still very curious about hot yoga, and l wonder whether one day some miraculous findings might come out regarding it. I would at least expect some studies to begin to ask questions: Is yoga in the heat more healthy than yoga without heat? Does practicing yoga in the heat improve health in any way? What ways? The testimony of now millions of hot yoga practitioners-certainly a narrative form of convincing evidence- is enough signal an interest in more rigorous forms of scientific research.

Of course this pendulum shift away from yoga that is hot is understandable in another way. When a proponent of a popular thing suddenly finds themselves less than popular, people tend to start running for cover. Bikram- as most people know- has gotten into some really unpleasantly hot water over the last few years, being currently accused and sued from various people for inappropriate sexual behavior and improper firing of employees. It’s little wonder why people would want to distance themselves from the man behind Bikram Yoga and some of the less scientific claims he has made about practicing in the heat. Health trends like hot yoga sometimes ride the coat tails of their figureheads like Bikram, and when the figurehead is in some way discredited, so doubt spreads all over the trends they’ve created. But what if the trend is a highly beneficial practice?

If I was asking whether hot yoga benefits our health, I would begin by asking what we already know about similar things. For example, scientifically, we know a lot about saunas and sweating and their great benefit to human health. Sweat has been found to induce the creation of dermicidin, a powerful antibiotic peptide that is essential in our fight against disease (2). Another research article showed that, “Many toxic elements appeared to be preferentially excreted through sweat”(3). Another found that sauna-induced sweating was a strong element in helping people overcome chronic pain. (4). And still another stated, “Symptoms such as fatigue, pain, sleep disturbance, and low-grade fever were dramatically improved after 15 to 25 sessions of thermal therapy,” and that “These results suggest that repeated thermal therapy might be a promising method for the treatment of chronic fatigue syndrome” (5). There are also many scientific articles into regular yoga and the miraculous-sounding ways that it can help our mental and physical health.

I wouldn’t read the extensive research into the benefits of saunas, sweating and regular yoga, and say that the hot-yoga- health- myth had been debunked. Debunk or demystify are not the words I would choose, anyways. I would choose words like curious, optimistic and even anxious to see hot yoga proven to be highly beneficial for our health- even beyond that of a regular yoga practice. There are a million questions that the research into sweating and regular yoga lead me to ask about hot yoga. The fact that there is no fully controlled double blind study yet conducted on the subject does not mean the myths surrounding hot yoga have been debunked. They simply haven’t been studied.


(1) ACE Study Examines Effects of Bikram Yoga on Core Body Temps.

(2) Song, C. et al., 2013. Crystal structure and functional mechanism of a human antimicrobial membrane channel.

(3) Genuis SJ, Birkholz DRodushkin IBeesoon S., 2011. Blood, urine, and sweat (BUS) study: monitoring and elimination of bioaccumulated toxic elements.

(4) Masuda A., Koga Y., Hattanmaru M.,· Minagoe S., Tei C., 2005. The effects of thermal therapy for patients with chronic pain.

(5) Masuda, A. et al., 2005. The effects of repeated thermal therapy for two patients with chronic fatigue syndrome.











From the Warm Room

Setting up by the south windows
In the yoga studio 615 pm
Lightly lit
While the October day draws down
Dusk still dusk

And through the glass
Which is otherwise frosted
The emblem of a flame
Clears a line of sight

To the cement cross
On top of the Anglican church
Across the street
A cross across the street

Bathroom Garbages: A Critique

The bathroom garbage is not a real garbage. This is why.

The bathroom garbage is really small. It’s so small that it’s useless. It has a little lever that you are supposed to press with your foot, like a real garbage, but I never use the lever-it’s too small. Also, I rarely put anything in there, because I know that very soon, I will have to take it back out and throw it away again, into the regular garbage, anyhow. So why wouldn’t I just put it into the real garbage to begin with? Why keep moving garbage around the apartment?

The bathroom garbage is also useless because it is behind the toilet. The only place it fits is in the little spot between the toilet and the bathroom cabinet, and that makes it hard to get to. When I do put something in there, it’s a big production. I have to bend over, reach down, lift the lid and carefully to put something in. It makes tossing something into the garbage a real chore. That’s not what throwing things away is supposed to feel like! Plus it reeks down there.

The bathroom garbage is also useless because it takes forever to fill up. I never use it! Whatever is in there is really old and possibly smelly. By the time I have to empty it, the stuff in there is at least four months old. Items like one q-tip, a kleenex, or an old toothpaste container don’t seem to warrant their own garbage can, either. Also, I never remember to put a bag in there, so I practically have to wear gloves when I’m emptying it into the real garbage can, where the items could have gone in the first place.

The items I put in the bathroom garbage don’t need their own container. its too small to really hold anything, it’s way down beside the smelly toilet bowl, and it takes at least four months to fill up. From now on, I’m not using the bathroom garbage anymore.

Quarter Tank

It was Sunday and so they would go for a Sunday drive.

Then they tumbled out of the house, like they had done many times before. Mother about in the middle of the three children, husband last, checking shudders, widows doors. The dog was staying today, big bowl of food. Normally he would have gone but today was different. Today the dog was staying.

They stepped out onto the porch, surveying the beautiful late afternoon light, playing sublime tricks in the thick, everyday layers of haze migrated near the horizon. The oldest daughter remarked to father, “its a nice one dad.” They often sat in the caress of evening light made spectacular by unholy shades of blue and bright green.

Father shrugged and throat-cleared, “yep,” so unusually short that they all picked up on it. The bustle stopped, the wind picked up and everyone gazed over to the waiting car, angled expectantly toward the house. A gust puffed a small dose of dry earth against the long doors of the car and tussled the children’s hair. Small drifts of good soil leaned against the tires, steadily filling up the wheel wells. Mom and dad often had the children collect these so they could plant with it. The wind lifted pebbles, which tinkled against the steel body of the car. Normally, this would have made father wince but paint finish was the last thing he thought about now: this was the Sunday drive, the last Sunday drive. It was the last quarter tank of gas.

This car was big. Long steel doors, long wide hood. The powerhouse nestled under there could easily charge the 4300 pounds of car and family to 150 miles an hour. A small fortress of steel unspent fuel and velocity and fun.

They piled over to it, the doors were locked and junior pulling up on the handle to his favorite side, as he always did. He didn’t know about today. He demanded sitting right behind dad, as usual, pretending he was driving, fantasizing about conducting this drive they loved so much.

With everyone in, father turned it over and it hurled awake, then settled. The low hum and vibration patting them with expectations of passing countryside and the long off gazes that momentum brought. The time had come and passed when children sunk into their phones and ear jacks and games during a drive. Now they looked out the window and made things up as children always did on long drives without such things.

The front tires ripped up some stones from the drive as father bent into the gas with ankle and foot, then caught grip and slid ahead. Toward the road, the 40-yard gravel driveway beneath and the house shrinking in the rear view in silence. At the end of the drive, father slowed it to stop when another gust came, this one enough to rock the car and blind the view with dust. Rich, moist and heavy earth lifts like a viper when it dries out and blows around, the pernicious reminder of long gone lush crops and fresh food, whipping against your face. Husband looked over to wife who was already looking up at him, as if they were in mid conversation, as if they had been talking instead of silent.

A serious gaze inflected across her brow that was often normally serious. It was like the look she gave him end of spring when they had only known each other for a few weeks, 25 years ago. She was leaving-off to Europe for the summer and maybe longer. My god he loved her so much, even by then. The youth…glamorous and sad. What uncertainty, her pleasure in it, her wild. Could he not get wretched at her leaving? Today was like that. Nothing left for it but to go. The string in his belly yearned and tugged, the drama from that summer came back, as it often did when he peered at his wife’s unbelievable eyes.

Something was over, as over as anything coming to an end ever was. He turned his head up left, to the west and the now undeniable, oncoming storm. Probably mostly dust…. Soil. There was little rain. A frightening 90 mile an hour wind pressed against his and junior’s side of the car. He turned the wheel and his family away and to the right.

Some beast. The thrust in tune with the surging engine made junior squeal. The road beneath and air around a hissing fabric under the plummet of rubber and steel. The house shrank in the rear mirror as father adjusted it. Junior’s chubby hand adjusted his mirror, too. God, they would miss this. No matter what could be said later, this was a lot of fun. The tires cast powdery dust up behind them and shrouded the trailing house quickly from view. Father grabbed his wife’s hand hard, looked up the road as he leaned more into the petal. They weren’t coming back. This was the last Sunday drive on their last quarter tank.

He hit a little more gas. The gage shifted a little bit further towards empty. The car plowed ahead, kicking up more dust. Like father, junior tucked his chin, settled his grip on the wheel and stared down the road.